So I’m 16 weeks pregnant today! Somehow the doctors are saying I’m starting the 17th week, I don’t get it but hey, if you want to say I’m farther along, I’m cool with that.
Blood sugars have been…. Boring. Very average… A few flatliner days… But lately I’ve been getting blood sugars as high as 220 in the most random times… Like in the middle of my work shift?
Speaking of work, it’s becoming increasingly more difficult. I have sciatica nerve pain down my entire right leg and if I don’t sit down for every 30 minutes I’m on my feet, my thigh feels like it was set on fire… No good. Sometimes work is just so busy that I can’t sit down as often as I should, which leaves me barely able to walk by the end of the shift.
Good new before bad? Okay!
I finished my 30 page thesis paper… Which means I’m officially a graduate again! Three bachelor degrees and a boat load of debt, but I’m done with school for at least the next 3 years.
Okay, ready for the bad news?
I won’t go into details here, but my boyfriend and father of my unborn child decided it would be best for him to break up with me in a very immature and cowardly way. So I’ll be going through this pregnancy alone, which is hard. Especially hard when I see both people and their child so happy together (I’ve seen male/female, female/female, and male/male parenting relationships, hence the “both people”). I feel very much alone and abandoned, but luckily my parents are on my side and letting me move back home… But financially I’m scared, I can’t even afford my pump supplies and I’ve stopped using the Dexcom because I simply can’t afford it on my part time paycheck. I know it was an ever valuable tool, but it’s just not in my budget anymore.
I know that the higher power(s) have a plan and that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes shit can get overwhelming.